Showing posts with label Rant. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Rant. Show all posts
May 9, 2007
Am I wired wrong?
Or maybe I'm missing some parts? I guess something is wrong with me. Why can't I do things normal people do? I always fuck things up. And I just can't help it. I'm a mess. I'm so tired. I don't even like to do anything anymore, it all just makes me angry.
May 8, 2007
SO Angry
Angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry, angry!
Apr 17, 2007
Half Blah Birthday
Daphne and Dan are awesome! For my birthday, they came over (and actually got here at midnight, which was pretty cool of them, since they both had to work the next day, I think) and I got some pretty flowers (I'm not sure what kind, but they're pretty!) and a newnewnewnew monitor! I love it. Everything is so clear and everything looks amazing! I love it. <3
And my mom got me this cool watch set thing, it has a bunch of different color straps so you can switch it around and like color coordinate with outfits and everything, it's awesome! :D The only little thing is that it runs slow, but a new battery should fix that problem.
And now, my dad. He did technically pay for my Mary Kay stuff, which is awesome, I'm happy about that. But, he wasn't here for my birthday. He left for Sharon's the day before. All I have to say is, WHAT THE FUCK? I know Sharon is important to him, but how does he think it made me feel that he thinks it's more important to be with her than to at least spend a bit of time with me on my birthday? I was HOME ALONE on my BIRTHDAY. How do you think that made me feel? Maybe I'm being selfish, but spending your birthday alone is honestly one of the shittiest things ever.
I am so happy that Daphne and Dan at least spent the night, even though I only spent about an hour with them before they had to sleep/leave for work. It made me so happy that they at least came to spend some time with me. But spending the rest of the day all alone made me feel so insignificant.
Anyways, work is going pretty good. I still get messed up with a lot of the till stuff, like when to swipe debit cards or circling the crazy stuff at the bottom of the receipt...blah. But I'll get the hang of it eventually. I hope. :)
And my mom got me this cool watch set thing, it has a bunch of different color straps so you can switch it around and like color coordinate with outfits and everything, it's awesome! :D The only little thing is that it runs slow, but a new battery should fix that problem.
And now, my dad. He did technically pay for my Mary Kay stuff, which is awesome, I'm happy about that. But, he wasn't here for my birthday. He left for Sharon's the day before. All I have to say is, WHAT THE FUCK? I know Sharon is important to him, but how does he think it made me feel that he thinks it's more important to be with her than to at least spend a bit of time with me on my birthday? I was HOME ALONE on my BIRTHDAY. How do you think that made me feel? Maybe I'm being selfish, but spending your birthday alone is honestly one of the shittiest things ever.
I am so happy that Daphne and Dan at least spent the night, even though I only spent about an hour with them before they had to sleep/leave for work. It made me so happy that they at least came to spend some time with me. But spending the rest of the day all alone made me feel so insignificant.
Anyways, work is going pretty good. I still get messed up with a lot of the till stuff, like when to swipe debit cards or circling the crazy stuff at the bottom of the receipt...blah. But I'll get the hang of it eventually. I hope. :)
Apr 11, 2007
Why work for a living?
I feel really upset and pissed off. But at the same time I'm a bit happy.
I got a birthday card from Grandma today, which was cool, I'll have to remember to call her or even write her a letter. :D Also, my new debit card came in the mail and I've got that all set up, which is also GOOD. And the cellphones dad ordered came in today, and I've claimed one as my own. :D
But then there's work. I really, really want to do good at work, but I feel like I'm already fucking it up too much. I feel completely lost all the time, and I keep messing up simple things like a normal transaction with a edge card, or gift card. I don't really feel very comfortable there either, nobody besides Jason has actually talked to me, even when I try to start up a conversation (unless I mess something up), and I can't even remember the prices of things or to check the wall behind the counter for the new games when someone brings one up to the counter. I always forget to circle the bottom of the receipt and I feel like I'm always doing things wrong and that nobody wants me to be there.
I'm hardly going to get paid anything at all, and people already want the money. I won't be able to get my ID back or pay back Daphne for WoW and Burning Crusade, and work clothes she bought me, since dad is apparently expecting money when I get paid.
I got a birthday card from Grandma today, which was cool, I'll have to remember to call her or even write her a letter. :D Also, my new debit card came in the mail and I've got that all set up, which is also GOOD. And the cellphones dad ordered came in today, and I've claimed one as my own. :D
But then there's work. I really, really want to do good at work, but I feel like I'm already fucking it up too much. I feel completely lost all the time, and I keep messing up simple things like a normal transaction with a edge card, or gift card. I don't really feel very comfortable there either, nobody besides Jason has actually talked to me, even when I try to start up a conversation (unless I mess something up), and I can't even remember the prices of things or to check the wall behind the counter for the new games when someone brings one up to the counter. I always forget to circle the bottom of the receipt and I feel like I'm always doing things wrong and that nobody wants me to be there.
I'm hardly going to get paid anything at all, and people already want the money. I won't be able to get my ID back or pay back Daphne for WoW and Burning Crusade, and work clothes she bought me, since dad is apparently expecting money when I get paid.
Apr 6, 2007
Little brothers are secretly devils in disguise
So I started work at EB Games on Monday. It was pretty good, a bit confusing, but still good. There was lots of random little things to remember, so it was overwhelming, but I started getting used to some of it pretty fast. I worked Tuesday too and it was pretty much the same. Yesterday was a bit different though. I met Justin and Jason, and the whole night I felt really out of place. I guess it was because I don't really know them, and they just talked to each other the whole time, so yeah. Jason seems really good though, he was doing everything like he's been working there ages. It was neat.
In other news, I'm really pissed off. I came home last night since I don't work until Sunday, and everything in my room is messed up. As soon as I walked in, I knew Jonathon had messed up everything. Both my blankets were gone, and my jackets were on my bed. The blind in my room is gone, and now there's a sheet hanging over the window. My xbox was sitting on the vent, the cords are all over the bloody place, and my controller is gone. The ring tone on the phone was changed to some annoying siren sounding thing, the speakers weren't plugged in right and mess up every time I try to listen to something. My PC was moved way over, all my bank papers that I had neatly organized are all over the place...WHY THE HELL CAN'T HE JUST LEAVE MY SHIT ALONE?! I don't go in his room and move everything around and mess up things, do I? No. But I'm really tempted to right now. Everytime I'm gone, even for the day, I come back and everything is in a complete mess. It really makes me angry, seeing as I told him NOT to touch my computer or mess with anything in my room, but he did anyways.
In other news, I'm really pissed off. I came home last night since I don't work until Sunday, and everything in my room is messed up. As soon as I walked in, I knew Jonathon had messed up everything. Both my blankets were gone, and my jackets were on my bed. The blind in my room is gone, and now there's a sheet hanging over the window. My xbox was sitting on the vent, the cords are all over the bloody place, and my controller is gone. The ring tone on the phone was changed to some annoying siren sounding thing, the speakers weren't plugged in right and mess up every time I try to listen to something. My PC was moved way over, all my bank papers that I had neatly organized are all over the place...WHY THE HELL CAN'T HE JUST LEAVE MY SHIT ALONE?! I don't go in his room and move everything around and mess up things, do I? No. But I'm really tempted to right now. Everytime I'm gone, even for the day, I come back and everything is in a complete mess. It really makes me angry, seeing as I told him NOT to touch my computer or mess with anything in my room, but he did anyways.
Mar 12, 2007
Two legs and a heart beat
You know, I really don't mind cleaning somedays. And that's how I felt today, until I was grabbing some laundry from the washing machine to put in the dryer. Jonathon walks by and opens the bathroom door, turning on the lights and fan, and goes, "Clean that up." and of course, somehow a dog got in there and now there's dog shit on the floor.
First off, what the hell is he so busy with that he can't clean it up? And if he already noticed it why didn't he already clean it instead of leaving it there until he could tell ME to do it? And secondly, WHAT THE FUCK?! Did you just TELL ME to clean that up? What happened to, "I'm tired from shovelling the driveway, can you please clean that up?" and it's not like I would have said no today, because I was in a good mood. But you don't just walk around TELLING me what to do, especially when you aren't doing shit yourself. FUCKFUCKFUCK.
I'm tired. They can clean that shit on their own, I don't care. Do their own fucking laundry, and clean the kitchen after they make fucking messes.
First off, what the hell is he so busy with that he can't clean it up? And if he already noticed it why didn't he already clean it instead of leaving it there until he could tell ME to do it? And secondly, WHAT THE FUCK?! Did you just TELL ME to clean that up? What happened to, "I'm tired from shovelling the driveway, can you please clean that up?" and it's not like I would have said no today, because I was in a good mood. But you don't just walk around TELLING me what to do, especially when you aren't doing shit yourself. FUCKFUCKFUCK.
I'm tired. They can clean that shit on their own, I don't care. Do their own fucking laundry, and clean the kitchen after they make fucking messes.
Feb 25, 2007
Do not want!
I'm kinda annoyed...Sharon gave dad the email address of the guy that rents a room in her house (or something like that), and dad gave me the email address. And I already told dad I wasn't interested...alsjlkj. So, I just sent a lame email to him, saying that I'm not really interested because I already like someone...so blah. I feel kinda like an ass though, so I hope he wasn't excited about it or anything (which I doubt, but you never know I guess). And of course, the address is kinda unbelievable too, something like toogood4u or something like that. Blah blah blah. I'm going to kick dad.
Jan 31, 2007
Just Venting
I'm so pissed off. I'm really just tired, and I should have been in bed hours ago, and I haven't been sleeping good...but I'm really pissed off.
Dad isn't home tonight. He said he was just going to be gone for the day, but I guess by day he meant 24 hours or something. I don't know. That makes me angry, because he didn't even say he was going to be gone overnight, which I think he really should. I could have just called and said, "Well, thanks for letting us know you weren't coming home." but...I'm done caring for the time being. I'm just so angry, and he can go and try to forget about mom by pretending he's happy seeing all these random women. Don't care.
Blah, blah. Then, I keep getting frustrated/upset at Nate. Sometimes he'll do/say something and it makes me really angry, then I'm suddenly sad about it. I guess I feel sad because I don't want to be upset at him. And we're slowly growing farther apart. Maybe that's what's upsetting me too.
I don't know. I hope this doesn't make sense, and is full of silly spelling mistakes.
Dad isn't home tonight. He said he was just going to be gone for the day, but I guess by day he meant 24 hours or something. I don't know. That makes me angry, because he didn't even say he was going to be gone overnight, which I think he really should. I could have just called and said, "Well, thanks for letting us know you weren't coming home." but...I'm done caring for the time being. I'm just so angry, and he can go and try to forget about mom by pretending he's happy seeing all these random women. Don't care.
Blah, blah. Then, I keep getting frustrated/upset at Nate. Sometimes he'll do/say something and it makes me really angry, then I'm suddenly sad about it. I guess I feel sad because I don't want to be upset at him. And we're slowly growing farther apart. Maybe that's what's upsetting me too.
I don't know. I hope this doesn't make sense, and is full of silly spelling mistakes.
Jan 22, 2007
So Disgusting
I'm so angry. So I wake up at around 8:15 this morning because the dogs are barking at something. Not unusualy, but very annoying seeing as I only managed to fall asleep around 3am. So I get up and go to feed the dogs and notice some weird stuff all over the rug by the couch. It really looked like one of the dogs pooped all over...like it got all squished in the rug or something (gross though, I know. Sorry.). So, that really pisses me off, because when I look closer it looks someone picked up some of it but left the rest. Okay, WTF. I don't care what it is, you don't just clean up half and leave the rest. Especially if its in the rug, I mean ajkhdkjhk!!!!! It makes me really upset because you can tell it's been there a while, and dad and Jonathon could have at least tried to clean it up better. But no....they were just going to leave it so it dried in the rug. Ew. :
Anyways, so I got out the rug cleaner stuff and put that on and when I just tried to clean it after letting it soak a bit..well. It's still pretty much stuck in the rug and it looks gross. It wouldn't be so bad if it was only one spot, but it's like 4 or 5 spots on the rug, not small ones either. Gross, gross, gross. And why is there a towel in the garbage in the bathroom?! aksjklj Seriously. Not what I wanted to wake up to. And now I can't get back to sleep.
Anyways, so I got out the rug cleaner stuff and put that on and when I just tried to clean it after letting it soak a bit..well. It's still pretty much stuck in the rug and it looks gross. It wouldn't be so bad if it was only one spot, but it's like 4 or 5 spots on the rug, not small ones either. Gross, gross, gross. And why is there a towel in the garbage in the bathroom?! aksjklj Seriously. Not what I wanted to wake up to. And now I can't get back to sleep.
Dec 27, 2006
Less than thrilled
Hm. Why wasn't I really thrilled for Andrea to come over today? Let's see...she didn't want to do anything but download songs. She didn't really watch Matthew and he went around making messes with everything. And I know, he's just a kid...but fuck. It's going to take forever to clean this all up. And wow, they drink more pop than Jonathon. I said that we were saving the coke and rootbeer in the pantry for new years..but I think the coke is half gone. Same with the cans of rootbeer. Blah blah blah! What a crappy day. aksjdhkj
Jail
Andrea just called me. She said Matt is in jail for a month, and for some reason I can't actually imagine him in jail even though its the best place for jerks like him. I asked her why, and she said she wasn't sure...and she was a bit quiet about things, so I think it had something to do with her of course.
Either way, she's coming over for the day (crap..I hope she doesn't bring Matthew...there are so many little things he can get into..), and hopefully we'll have an alright time. Now, I have to go around and put up anything that Matthew can get into, just in case she does bring him....blah.
Either way, she's coming over for the day (crap..I hope she doesn't bring Matthew...there are so many little things he can get into..), and hopefully we'll have an alright time. Now, I have to go around and put up anything that Matthew can get into, just in case she does bring him....blah.
Nov 14, 2006
Evil Little Pills
These pills...suck. :( They hurt my tummy and make me feel blah. And I have to take them every 6 hours so they stay balanced...and it's annoying to eat something with them and drink a full glass of water....and they kinda make me sleepy and weird feeling...blah!
Anyways, dad will be home today. I'm not sure when...and he probably complain about the lack of cleaning....blah. I know. Just..BLAH
Anyways, dad will be home today. I'm not sure when...and he probably complain about the lack of cleaning....blah. I know. Just..BLAH
Nov 5, 2006
I'm a 'falling oat'?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Meh.
Allie: Meh.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Shouldn't you be playing WoW and chugging coffee or summat?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: MEH.
Allie: I don't drink coffee.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Oh.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: That explains everything.
Allie: I have COKE
Allie: caine
Allie: But really, for some reason, coffee always makes me feel bleh. Plus I'd end up with a cup full of sugar.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: >_>
Lt. Cmdr. Data: You have all these horrible reasons as to why you don't like or can't do something and yet it's your own damn fault everytime.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: My, my, my, you are adorable!
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Likea tribble, I guess.
Allie: oO
Allie: Everytime I talk to you, I learn something bad about myself. xD
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I know.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: That's all I do.
Allie: I didn't mean it in a bad way
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I judge people endlessly like a Paladin of Helm, and make them feel bad for being who they are, when I, myself, am a total fuckhead.
Allie: Hehe, I thought it said 'fucklehead' >_>
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Heeh, I know j00 hatez m3h.
Allie: I don't hate you :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Well that kind of ruins things for me.
Allie: That I don't hate you?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Motherfucker, I was talking to you.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: And I god damn ran my scout straight-the-fuck into the enemy base.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: What. The. Shit.
Allie: :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: X-fir ewouldn't go down either to fix it.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: It's like it knew.
Allie: It doesn't either for me sometimes on WoW.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: "Haha, IMA PWNZ UR SCOUT TUT HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAA L:OoooooooooooooooL!"
Allie: loooool
Allie: Can we be serious for a second?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I guess.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Can I still be Greg?
Allie: Maybe!
Lt. Cmdr. Data: KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Allie: Do you really think I hate you? And do you really find so many things wrong with me? I had another question, but I can't remember. :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: lololol
Lt. Cmdr. Data: k3k?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Can my answer be K3k?
Allie: No :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: *sighs*
Allie: Sorry. Stupid girly questions :P
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I think you don't like Nate and myself anymore. That you don't want to group with us anymore.
Allie: -shoos them away-
Lt. Cmdr. Data: And you seem like a basketcase, no offense or anything, MOLE MOLE MOLE, stark raving mad, I say!
Allie: Does Nate think that of me too?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I think he thinks you're falling oat.
Allie: k lol
And Nate wonders why I just don't like this guy. Maybe I am a basket case. And to think I was forcing myself to be nice and civil this entire conversation. What a fucking douche. Sorry for the language, but I can't believe this guy.
Allie: Meh.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Shouldn't you be playing WoW and chugging coffee or summat?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: MEH.
Allie: I don't drink coffee.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Oh.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: That explains everything.
Allie: I have COKE
Allie: caine
Allie: But really, for some reason, coffee always makes me feel bleh. Plus I'd end up with a cup full of sugar.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: >_>
Lt. Cmdr. Data: You have all these horrible reasons as to why you don't like or can't do something and yet it's your own damn fault everytime.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: My, my, my, you are adorable!
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Likea tribble, I guess.
Allie: oO
Allie: Everytime I talk to you, I learn something bad about myself. xD
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I know.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: That's all I do.
Allie: I didn't mean it in a bad way
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I judge people endlessly like a Paladin of Helm, and make them feel bad for being who they are, when I, myself, am a total fuckhead.
Allie: Hehe, I thought it said 'fucklehead' >_>
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Heeh, I know j00 hatez m3h.
Allie: I don't hate you :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Well that kind of ruins things for me.
Allie: That I don't hate you?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Motherfucker, I was talking to you.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: And I god damn ran my scout straight-the-fuck into the enemy base.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: What. The. Shit.
Allie: :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: X-fir ewouldn't go down either to fix it.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: It's like it knew.
Allie: It doesn't either for me sometimes on WoW.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: "Haha, IMA PWNZ UR SCOUT TUT HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAA L:OoooooooooooooooL!"
Allie: loooool
Allie: Can we be serious for a second?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I guess.
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Can I still be Greg?
Allie: Maybe!
Lt. Cmdr. Data: KKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Allie: Do you really think I hate you? And do you really find so many things wrong with me? I had another question, but I can't remember. :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: lololol
Lt. Cmdr. Data: k3k?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: Can my answer be K3k?
Allie: No :(
Lt. Cmdr. Data: *sighs*
Allie: Sorry. Stupid girly questions :P
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I think you don't like Nate and myself anymore. That you don't want to group with us anymore.
Allie: -shoos them away-
Lt. Cmdr. Data: And you seem like a basketcase, no offense or anything, MOLE MOLE MOLE, stark raving mad, I say!
Allie: Does Nate think that of me too?
Lt. Cmdr. Data: I think he thinks you're falling oat.
Allie: k lol
And Nate wonders why I just don't like this guy. Maybe I am a basket case. And to think I was forcing myself to be nice and civil this entire conversation. What a fucking douche. Sorry for the language, but I can't believe this guy.
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