Don't cry in public places. It's awkward

So...today. Woke up, and Nate was still awake, so I talked to him a bit. He was pretty quiet, and eventually went to bed. I felt kinda sad and upset, like he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. Then on WoW, I messed up like 3 quests...then lagged and died. So I gave up on that and went to bed. Slept until 3:30, then went to GP with Dad and Jonathon. That was okay, except when we were in Wal-Mart, I felt like I was going to cry. But Jeri and Forrest came by and said hi, and I felt pretty stupid. Then dad asked like 5 times if I was mad at him. And no, I wasn't. After that we went to Smitty's and had supper, then did a bit more shopping. All of that was fine too. Then we came home and wrapped presents.
Then, I talked to Nate. And he was quiet again, then said he was going away until after Christmas. That was really, really horrible. It made me feel like he was leaving because he just got bored of me or something, even though he said he was going somewhere until Christmas was over...which I guess I can understand, I want to do the same thing. But, it still made me really sad and upset. As if christmas already isn't super crappy, he leaves too.

I guess I'm also still upset about when we talked yesterday, even though I was fine with it earlier today after thinking about it. It always leads back to me thinking that he doesn't want to talk to me anymore or something. And I know that really isn't the case (I hope..) but I can't help but think it.

I don't know. This doesn't make much sense.