Jun 16, 2008
"I have the best girl in the world!"
I'm really conflicted. I feel a bit sad, depressed, lonely...I'm too used to talking to Nate everyday. And when he's busy, or isn't home for me to talk to, the day feels horrible and I feel lost and messed up. It makes me second guess things, and I'm always thinking, "Maybe he doesn't really care that much. He's too busy to even talk to me." but I know somedays I'm busy too and don't get to talk to him. I feel like, a lot of my time is spent sitting here waiting for him to get back from work, the store, playing a game...whatever. I just want to say "We should take a break." but then he says something like "I thought about you all night at work." and it makes me feel like an ass and I can't say it. Or his xfire status will say "I have the best girl in the world!" and...I just can't say it.
Jun 7, 2008
It's Odd to Say, But...
I really like my job, which is surprising to me actually. Each time I like a job, something happens that makes me start to hate it. Maybe I shouldn't have admitted that I like it. :(
It doesn't even bug me when people walk over my freshly swept/mopped floor. I know it bugs some people, but it's like, you should go into this job expecting that to happen. It's a hotel, you shouldn't expect guests to take off their shoes and tip-toe around your wet floor. That's just stupid.
The only time it bugs me when people mess up my floor, is if it's other people that I'm working with, especially the housekeepers. Sometimes they bring down coffee cups from the rooms, and somehow manage to spill coffee all over in the elevator right after I mop it, and all the way from the elevator to the breakfast room. Why does this bug me? Because it happens at least twice a day, and even the guests don't spill their coffee around like that. Anyways...those coffee cups that the housekeepers are bringing down should have been emptied in the sinks in the room, so it's not like they're full cups of coffee, how do they manage to spill it everywhere?
It doesn't even bug me when people walk over my freshly swept/mopped floor. I know it bugs some people, but it's like, you should go into this job expecting that to happen. It's a hotel, you shouldn't expect guests to take off their shoes and tip-toe around your wet floor. That's just stupid.
The only time it bugs me when people mess up my floor, is if it's other people that I'm working with, especially the housekeepers. Sometimes they bring down coffee cups from the rooms, and somehow manage to spill coffee all over in the elevator right after I mop it, and all the way from the elevator to the breakfast room. Why does this bug me? Because it happens at least twice a day, and even the guests don't spill their coffee around like that. Anyways...those coffee cups that the housekeepers are bringing down should have been emptied in the sinks in the room, so it's not like they're full cups of coffee, how do they manage to spill it everywhere?
Jun 3, 2008
Photoshop Costs HOW Much??
Okay. Hm.
I was thinking about posting yesterday, but I was too busy doing nothing, so I'll post now (actually, all I accomplished yesterday was downloading yet another program I really don't need, and weeding a part of a flower garden. To me, this qualifies as nothing.)
This weekend was pretty good. Daphne and Dan came out to get some pictures done with their wedding photographer, and they spent the whole weekend here. I feel a bit bad that I didn't hang out with them more, but I've seriously been missing Nate a lot, and the weekend is when he has his days off, so I was torn between him and them. (Also I had insanely bad cramps most of the weekend, and the Midol makes me feel even lazier and not wanting to do anything) Maybe this is bad, I don't know. But Friday night I was really depressed because we've hardly been able to talk, so I really wanted to have more of a chance to talk with him over the weekend.
Anyhow, work was pretty decent this weekend too. I actually managed to get almost 17 hours in, which is really only about 2 hours more than I've been getting the last few weeks, but I don't care, that's basically an extra...$25. It might not seem like much in the long run, but hell, I'm glad with even $5...
And actually, I talked to one of the other girls at work today, which is a huge change for me, seeing as I generally keep to myself and everyone knows this. All the other housekeepers were mad at her, because apparently she was on the schedule for night shift but didn't show up. But, according to her, she didn't even know she was on the schedule for it. Anyhow, the other housekeepers can be rude, even if they don't know the whole story, so they finished their rooms and left, leaving Mandy with a ton of rooms to do still. Now, I don't mind helping with housekeeping if they seriously need it, but I only really like making beds, and Karen knows this. So at lunch, all the other girls were leaving, and Mandy asked me if I was almost done work. I was a bit surprised she was even talking to me, since we'd never talked before, but said yes, I was almost done. She then asked if I could help her with her rooms. I was a bit hesitant, I didn't want to be stuck cleaning some toilet or anything. I asked what she needed done, and Karen who was sitting nearby mentioned that I didn't mind making beds, so Mandy said it would be great if I could help make beds. So I said sure, and was glad that I'd actually get a bit more hours.
So, I finished the rest of my stuff and went to work making more beds (I also helped Sharon make beds in the morning too) for Mandy, while listening to Mythbusters on the tv. To me, this is heaven. But only if I get to make the beds on my own. That way I can take my time and listen to the tv, and time seems to go by faster since I actually have something keeping my mind occupied, instead of thinking to myself all day.
Anyways...Mandy is really actually pretty nice, and I was amazed by how many times she thanked me and praised me on my bedmaking skills (which aren't really that great, but apparently better than hers?). It was really nice to have someone appreciate the work I was doing, and to thank me so much for it. I had always thought Mandy was kind of rude and just...not the type of person I'd see myself talking to, but she wasn't too bad in all honesty.
And, let's see. I downloaded Photoshop...err, I mean. I bought Photoshop completely legally. Yeah right. As if I'm going to pay $1000 for a program, no matter how cool it is. That's beyond retarded. I'm having a blast playing with the brushes though, and layers and overlay. I haven't really done too much more with it, but it is very, very awesome. But I still wouldn't pay $1000 for it. Maybe if I won the lottery, and wanted to buy it just for the sake of spending a shitload of money on something I can get for free...then sure.
I was thinking about posting yesterday, but I was too busy doing nothing, so I'll post now (actually, all I accomplished yesterday was downloading yet another program I really don't need, and weeding a part of a flower garden. To me, this qualifies as nothing.)
This weekend was pretty good. Daphne and Dan came out to get some pictures done with their wedding photographer, and they spent the whole weekend here. I feel a bit bad that I didn't hang out with them more, but I've seriously been missing Nate a lot, and the weekend is when he has his days off, so I was torn between him and them. (Also I had insanely bad cramps most of the weekend, and the Midol makes me feel even lazier and not wanting to do anything) Maybe this is bad, I don't know. But Friday night I was really depressed because we've hardly been able to talk, so I really wanted to have more of a chance to talk with him over the weekend.
Anyhow, work was pretty decent this weekend too. I actually managed to get almost 17 hours in, which is really only about 2 hours more than I've been getting the last few weeks, but I don't care, that's basically an extra...$25. It might not seem like much in the long run, but hell, I'm glad with even $5...
And actually, I talked to one of the other girls at work today, which is a huge change for me, seeing as I generally keep to myself and everyone knows this. All the other housekeepers were mad at her, because apparently she was on the schedule for night shift but didn't show up. But, according to her, she didn't even know she was on the schedule for it. Anyhow, the other housekeepers can be rude, even if they don't know the whole story, so they finished their rooms and left, leaving Mandy with a ton of rooms to do still. Now, I don't mind helping with housekeeping if they seriously need it, but I only really like making beds, and Karen knows this. So at lunch, all the other girls were leaving, and Mandy asked me if I was almost done work. I was a bit surprised she was even talking to me, since we'd never talked before, but said yes, I was almost done. She then asked if I could help her with her rooms. I was a bit hesitant, I didn't want to be stuck cleaning some toilet or anything. I asked what she needed done, and Karen who was sitting nearby mentioned that I didn't mind making beds, so Mandy said it would be great if I could help make beds. So I said sure, and was glad that I'd actually get a bit more hours.
So, I finished the rest of my stuff and went to work making more beds (I also helped Sharon make beds in the morning too) for Mandy, while listening to Mythbusters on the tv. To me, this is heaven. But only if I get to make the beds on my own. That way I can take my time and listen to the tv, and time seems to go by faster since I actually have something keeping my mind occupied, instead of thinking to myself all day.
Anyways...Mandy is really actually pretty nice, and I was amazed by how many times she thanked me and praised me on my bedmaking skills (which aren't really that great, but apparently better than hers?). It was really nice to have someone appreciate the work I was doing, and to thank me so much for it. I had always thought Mandy was kind of rude and just...not the type of person I'd see myself talking to, but she wasn't too bad in all honesty.
And, let's see. I downloaded Photoshop...err, I mean. I bought Photoshop completely legally. Yeah right. As if I'm going to pay $1000 for a program, no matter how cool it is. That's beyond retarded. I'm having a blast playing with the brushes though, and layers and overlay. I haven't really done too much more with it, but it is very, very awesome. But I still wouldn't pay $1000 for it. Maybe if I won the lottery, and wanted to buy it just for the sake of spending a shitload of money on something I can get for free...then sure.
May 23, 2008
Tight Spot
I feel trapped sometimes. Mom somehow has to come up with like $4000 by June 14th or something (for Daphne's dress & some debt), and now that the house isn't going to be sold by then, this puts her in a tight spot. I have $200, which I was HOPING to save for when my bridesmaids dress comes in, and saving the other $60 for any alterations that will have to be done on the said dress. Mom only has $220 to pay for gas, groceries, smokes, and Gary's calling cards for THREE weeks (neither of us get paid for three weeks, due to our stupid boss not paying us every two weeks like a fucking normal boss). I really feel like an ass for not just giving my mom the $200 I have, but at the same time if I give this money to her, that sets me back even more on my saving plans. UGH. WTF WTF WTF. Thinking about money makes me feel so pissed off, I just want to scream.
May 22, 2008
Sudden Realization
Well, Nate's been looking around for a job, and this morning he had a interview at some place (for security), but since he figured he wouldn't get it, he went and applied at MapleLeaf...and actually got hired there instead. I'm really happy and proud of him, even though he didn't sound enthusiastic about it at all. The way I see it is, with both of us working, there's a better chance of getting to see each other soon. <3
However, I just realized a few minutes ago, that he works on all the days that I have off...and he works night shift, whereas I work a normal day shift. So, getting to actually talk to him is going to be even more difficult. I guess it will be fine though, I know I'll miss him a lot, since I'm so used to talking to him so much everyday, but I'm just glad that he's got a job now.
However, I just realized a few minutes ago, that he works on all the days that I have off...and he works night shift, whereas I work a normal day shift. So, getting to actually talk to him is going to be even more difficult. I guess it will be fine though, I know I'll miss him a lot, since I'm so used to talking to him so much everyday, but I'm just glad that he's got a job now.
May 12, 2008
Not Cool
Hm. Well, I'm kinda frustrated. I got paid, and was like "Woo! Now I have money to get a haircut, and buy a new brush, and a new shirt for work..." you know, a bunch of little things that I need to do for myself, and with some money left over to get mom something for Mother's Day. Then dad mentions that the phone is going to get cut off...and the satellite and internet probably too...so of course, I feel bad and give him almost all the money from my paycheque. Was this the best idea? I don't know. I feel bad that my dad is probably going into debt, and I'm not really doing much to help. But I shouldn't worry about this so much, even if I was working full time, what I would be able to give him to help out still wouldn't be very much.
Anyways, I guess that's why I'm frustrated. Also, that I don't really get to use the money I'm getting paid, at all. And this was stuff that I've been needing for a long time, but put it off when I get paid because other things are more important (except the N64 and WCIII, but at that time dad owed me a bit of money, which would have covered the stuff I needed..) BLAH. Now I feel like crying before work. NOT COOL.
Work is going okay I guess. I need to keep reminding myself before I go in that everything will be fine and as long as I try my best that's all that matters. So basically, trying to be positive about it. I know today I really need to think like that, since it's Saturday and things are going to get pretty busy and overwhelming for me.
Anyways, this is my strange rant thing I guess.
Anyways, I guess that's why I'm frustrated. Also, that I don't really get to use the money I'm getting paid, at all. And this was stuff that I've been needing for a long time, but put it off when I get paid because other things are more important (except the N64 and WCIII, but at that time dad owed me a bit of money, which would have covered the stuff I needed..) BLAH. Now I feel like crying before work. NOT COOL.
Work is going okay I guess. I need to keep reminding myself before I go in that everything will be fine and as long as I try my best that's all that matters. So basically, trying to be positive about it. I know today I really need to think like that, since it's Saturday and things are going to get pretty busy and overwhelming for me.
Anyways, this is my strange rant thing I guess.
Apr 17, 2008
LoTRO, Why do you hate me so?
First, I have to say, LoTRO is awesome! I know a lot of my friends don't exactly like it, but that's because they're WoW addicts and honestly don't give other games a decent chance (I know this, because I've done it myself too. "Nothing can compare to WoW!").
Anyhow, Nate convinced me to download the LoTRO trial (I've wanted to try it, but never thought about actually downloading it...silly me.), which took about, 4 hours I'd say, to download the normal version (3.9 GB, high res is almost 7 GB I think!). Anyhow, my video card is the minimum requirment for LoTRO, so the first thing I did once it was done updating was crank all the video settings as low as they'd go, just in case, and I figured if it worked fine I could turn some of them up a bit.
For the first little while, things ran smoothly, no noticeable lag or problems with the graphics (besides them being really blurry from being on the lowest settings possible) and I fumbled my way through to about level 3 before suddenly all the movement on the screen stopped. For a brief second, I thought I was lagging, until a mass jumble of insane colors showed up across my screen...and let me tell you, I was not happy.
Now, I'm not a computer genius or anything, but I can figure out when my video card is being worked too hard, so I managed to exit LoTRO and restarted my computer. I've never really had problems with games not working on my computer, so I thought maybe if I just update the drivers, that would solve the problem. So, I updated as many as I could (some hadn't been done in a while, to be honest) and restarted and tried LoTRO online again. Things worked fine, and I thought maybe updating the drivers had fixed the problem. But after about 20 minutes or so, it happened again and I had to restart again. After a few more random tries, re-checking the video settings, updating the driver for my monitor even, it would still do the same thing after about 15-45 minutes, so I gave up and went back to my normal game, WoW.
I've only ever had minor problems with WoW, and these all happen after major-ish patches and are solved fairly easily and fast, so I was surprised when suddenly characters on WoW were showing up as straight black, and instead of seeing smoke from fires, I saw huge black squares swirling up the screen. I thought this was weird, and thought maybe WoW was conflicting with LoTRO, but didn't want to uninstall LoTRO yet since I hadn't even had it 24 hours. I closed down WoW, and noticed that my whole PC was being incredibly slow, so after I restarted I opened WoW again to see if it would happen again. After about half an hour, the same thing happened again, but I wasn't able to exit WoW at all, so I had to restart the computer. This time, I uninstalled Lotro and got rid of all the files (/cry), restarted the computer and tried WoW yet again. Same thing still happened, and an error report window for WoW came up. I sent off the error report, and this time my PC wasn't lagging, so I opened WoW again so I could see what my video settings were at, but instead of opening, I got an error message saying the I needed to have DirectX 9.0c, and should update my graphic drivers. Finding this a bit weird, since I knew I already had to had DirextX 9.0c to run a lot of things I use, and since I'd just updated my drivers not even 12 hours earlier, I tried to update them again, just in case. But, there was no update at all, so I rolled it back and restarted my PC before opening WoW...
Now, it's working, I think. I've only played for about 45 minutes and so far everything is working just fine, but I don't think I'll really know until I try to play for an hour or two, since the game ran fine for at least half an hour to an hour each time before it crashed.
What I'm kinda confused about is my drivers. Did they somehow get rolled back without me noticing, is that even possible? Or is my PC just too old and not working as well as it should be? Did LoTRO do some serious damage to my video card, or was it just some weird mistake?
In any case, Nate said he might send me his old video card, which is a nice upgrade from my current one, so maybe that will help. It's a pity though, LoTRO was so fun, even though I only got to level 7. but I had a lute! I mean, even WoW doesn't have musical instruments that you can actually play yourself. I was so excited...booo.
Anyhow, Nate convinced me to download the LoTRO trial (I've wanted to try it, but never thought about actually downloading it...silly me.), which took about, 4 hours I'd say, to download the normal version (3.9 GB, high res is almost 7 GB I think!). Anyhow, my video card is the minimum requirment for LoTRO, so the first thing I did once it was done updating was crank all the video settings as low as they'd go, just in case, and I figured if it worked fine I could turn some of them up a bit.
For the first little while, things ran smoothly, no noticeable lag or problems with the graphics (besides them being really blurry from being on the lowest settings possible) and I fumbled my way through to about level 3 before suddenly all the movement on the screen stopped. For a brief second, I thought I was lagging, until a mass jumble of insane colors showed up across my screen...and let me tell you, I was not happy.
Now, I'm not a computer genius or anything, but I can figure out when my video card is being worked too hard, so I managed to exit LoTRO and restarted my computer. I've never really had problems with games not working on my computer, so I thought maybe if I just update the drivers, that would solve the problem. So, I updated as many as I could (some hadn't been done in a while, to be honest) and restarted and tried LoTRO online again. Things worked fine, and I thought maybe updating the drivers had fixed the problem. But after about 20 minutes or so, it happened again and I had to restart again. After a few more random tries, re-checking the video settings, updating the driver for my monitor even, it would still do the same thing after about 15-45 minutes, so I gave up and went back to my normal game, WoW.
I've only ever had minor problems with WoW, and these all happen after major-ish patches and are solved fairly easily and fast, so I was surprised when suddenly characters on WoW were showing up as straight black, and instead of seeing smoke from fires, I saw huge black squares swirling up the screen. I thought this was weird, and thought maybe WoW was conflicting with LoTRO, but didn't want to uninstall LoTRO yet since I hadn't even had it 24 hours. I closed down WoW, and noticed that my whole PC was being incredibly slow, so after I restarted I opened WoW again to see if it would happen again. After about half an hour, the same thing happened again, but I wasn't able to exit WoW at all, so I had to restart the computer. This time, I uninstalled Lotro and got rid of all the files (/cry), restarted the computer and tried WoW yet again. Same thing still happened, and an error report window for WoW came up. I sent off the error report, and this time my PC wasn't lagging, so I opened WoW again so I could see what my video settings were at, but instead of opening, I got an error message saying the I needed to have DirectX 9.0c, and should update my graphic drivers. Finding this a bit weird, since I knew I already had to had DirextX 9.0c to run a lot of things I use, and since I'd just updated my drivers not even 12 hours earlier, I tried to update them again, just in case. But, there was no update at all, so I rolled it back and restarted my PC before opening WoW...
Now, it's working, I think. I've only played for about 45 minutes and so far everything is working just fine, but I don't think I'll really know until I try to play for an hour or two, since the game ran fine for at least half an hour to an hour each time before it crashed.
What I'm kinda confused about is my drivers. Did they somehow get rolled back without me noticing, is that even possible? Or is my PC just too old and not working as well as it should be? Did LoTRO do some serious damage to my video card, or was it just some weird mistake?
In any case, Nate said he might send me his old video card, which is a nice upgrade from my current one, so maybe that will help. It's a pity though, LoTRO was so fun, even though I only got to level 7. but I had a lute! I mean, even WoW doesn't have musical instruments that you can actually play yourself. I was so excited...booo.
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