My Natey <3

I've decided that I don't give a shit about what other people say. Nate cares about me, even if he's not always good at showing it. I just know he does, and anyone who thinks otherwise...well, I'm just ignoring them. I love my Natey. <3

I love the middle one, it's so cheesy but it's almost like I could reach out and grab his hand. I love him so much.

Home Base

Someone (edit: it was Nate's best friend, Greg...ass!) said that I was a 'home base' for Nate. And when I asked what they meant, they said something like, "As in, someone they're safe and comfortable with until someone better comes along".
I don't know what 'safe' is supposed to mean there, but....great.

Visiting & Mrs Johnstone

I spent the last two days at moms place. It was nice, and sorta refreshing. And I didn't really mind Gary that much either, though I have the feeling he was being a bit on the quiet side around me on purpose. But hey, it was nice. We didn't do anything too special, and mom and I kinda shopped around a bit today, then lounged around watching tv...very nice and...relaxing.

But, when dad came to pick me up (and drop Jonathon and Justin off at my moms place) he wasn't feeling good at all. I could tell as soon as I saw him that he was either grumpy or not feeling good. He said he was feeling really woozy (is that how you spell it?) and light-headed, which isn't good when you're driving. So I offered to drive, and he said that if he felt he was getting worse then he'd let me drive. Well, I was really worried. It looked like he was having a hard time concentrating on just driving, so I offered a few times to drive, saying that I would rather me drive and be nervous (it was a bit icy in spots and getting dark...scary!) than have him feeling pretty sick driving. So he pulled over before we reached the border and let me drive. The plan was originally to go home, and dad would crash in bed. But when we got closer to home he was feeling even worse, so we decided it would be best for him to go see the doctor at the hospital. So, I drove straight to Beaverlodge and it was only about 7:20pm, so we had to wait for about an hour before the doctor even got there.
Dad kinda just slumped down in the chair and dozed off. We were only there for about 10 minutes, and Mrs. Johnstone (teacher at the HRJHS) walked by (leaving from visiting someone) and she looked pretty worried when she saw that dad was feeling so sick. So she sat down and talked to him a bit, then asked if she could say a prayer for him, and he said yes. At first I though, she meant, say a prayer when she got home or something, but no. She actually prayed out loud for him, right there. At first I though, this is embarassing, but it wasn't really. It was touching and kind. I've never seen someone just...pray...like that. It's hard to explain. Anyways, dad kept dozing off until around 8:30, and he seemed to feel a lot better than before, but went in to see the doctor anyways, which is good.
The doctor said something about an inner ear infection, and dad has to go back tomorrow morning to see the doctor again. And he gave dad some pills to keep him from being so dizzy.

But yeah. lkjsldk I'm pretty tired.

WoW Talk

So, my rogue is level 37 (finally, I didn't realize I'd been level 36 for 9 hours! But then again, I did a lot of mining, and me Nate and I ran through DM a few times just to see if we could pull it off alright), and I have 86g. I'm very impressed with myself, I earned over 40g in less than half a level. Hardcore. But, it's only because I took up mining and started selling Copper and Bronze Bars on the AH. I can get around 2-4g for each stack (depending on what kind it is) on Scarlet Crusade. Not too shabby if I do say so myself, especially since it's easy to get copper and to make bronze, people are just lazy to do it themselves.

I also made a Blood Elf paladin on Baelgun. She's level 14 right now. I made a guild on it too, called "We Have Cookies". We already have 29 members and the guild is 2 days old. /cheer

I can't really hate you

I really feel like shit. Mom thinks that I hate her. Which, yes...I understand how she came to that conclusion. But I talked to her tonight and told her that I never hated her at all, it's just taking me time to adjust to things. I feel so bad.

Just Venting

I'm so pissed off. I'm really just tired, and I should have been in bed hours ago, and I haven't been sleeping good...but I'm really pissed off.

Dad isn't home tonight. He said he was just going to be gone for the day, but I guess by day he meant 24 hours or something. I don't know. That makes me angry, because he didn't even say he was going to be gone overnight, which I think he really should. I could have just called and said, "Well, thanks for letting us know you weren't coming home." but...I'm done caring for the time being. I'm just so angry, and he can go and try to forget about mom by pretending he's happy seeing all these random women. Don't care.

Blah, blah. Then, I keep getting frustrated/upset at Nate. Sometimes he'll do/say something and it makes me really angry, then I'm suddenly sad about it. I guess I feel sad because I don't want to be upset at him. And we're slowly growing farther apart. Maybe that's what's upsetting me too.
I don't know. I hope this doesn't make sense, and is full of silly spelling mistakes.

So Disgusting

I'm so angry. So I wake up at around 8:15 this morning because the dogs are barking at something. Not unusualy, but very annoying seeing as I only managed to fall asleep around 3am. So I get up and go to feed the dogs and notice some weird stuff all over the rug by the couch. It really looked like one of the dogs pooped all over...like it got all squished in the rug or something (gross though, I know. Sorry.). So, that really pisses me off, because when I look closer it looks someone picked up some of it but left the rest. Okay, WTF. I don't care what it is, you don't just clean up half and leave the rest. Especially if its in the rug, I mean ajkhdkjhk!!!!! It makes me really upset because you can tell it's been there a while, and dad and Jonathon could have at least tried to clean it up better. But no....they were just going to leave it so it dried in the rug. Ew. :
Anyways, so I got out the rug cleaner stuff and put that on and when I just tried to clean it after letting it soak a bit..well. It's still pretty much stuck in the rug and it looks gross. It wouldn't be so bad if it was only one spot, but it's like 4 or 5 spots on the rug, not small ones either. Gross, gross, gross. And why is there a towel in the garbage in the bathroom?! aksjklj Seriously. Not what I wanted to wake up to. And now I can't get back to sleep.