Normally I make a few resolutions for myself, but they're usually the same sorts of things over and over again, and I don't really end up sticking to them or following through with them over the course of the year.
I've been noticing my faults more and more lately, and I've been letting a lot of things hold me back in life. I can't keep living like this anymore, so I've decided that I need to change, and I'm going to do it now. Admittedly, one of the main reasons that I finally decided that I need to change, is my boyfriend Nate. I don't want my problems to get in the way of our relationship anymore.
My Resolutions:
[01] To get & hold a steady job & give my mom $300 each month.
[02] To save up & see Nate this summer.
[03] To be more open around people I'll be working with and make friends with them.
[04] To go to work every day even if I'm sick, and to work hard.
[05] To talk to Nate on the phone more.
[06] I won't let the little things bother me.
I think I'll have more to add to this later, I've been giving it thought all day, but I don't think it's complete yet.
Jan 9, 2008
Dec 24, 2007
Christmas Excitement
I'm really, really excited about today (and tomorrow!). I think this is the first year that I've genuinely felt excited about Christmas, and spending time with my family. For a long time I was just excited about what new presents I'd be getting, or getting time off from school...but this year I'm just excited to spend time with everyone. When I think of Christmas, I keep thinking of everyone sitting around in Daphne's apartment and watching a movie and laughing, or some of us playing a board game...I don't know, I just feel really happy that we're not having a bunch of seperate Christmas' or something.
I really hope we end up watching a movie, or playing board games or something...I really want this Christmas to be fun and memorable for some reason.
I really hope we end up watching a movie, or playing board games or something...I really want this Christmas to be fun and memorable for some reason.
Dec 14, 2007
Depressed Ranting
I'm really upset right now. Not only is my computer about to crash, but I can't even back up any of my files. I can't burn a disc, I can't upload any pictures anywhere for safekeeping...NOTHING. Not to mention that explorer.exe keeps messing up and I can't get it running again (which means I have to restart constantly). So I'm going to lose all the pictures I have of Nate, I'm going to lose all the recordings of him playing his guitar, which I love so much. I'm going to lose all my music, movies and pictures, which I have a lot of and a lot of them are REALLY important to me (old family pictures, pictures of Amigo, an old video of Jonathon, etc). I'm just so angry. And to make things seem even worse, I feel sick, and pathetic. I can't get a job, and when I do get a job I'm so stupid that I can't even keep it. FUCK. I just want to cry and quit sometimes.
Mom and Gary were thinking of kicking me out last month because I wasn't working very often...then I get FIRED because I'm so pathetic. I couldn't even do the easiest job ever, that's how lame I am. I feel sick and depressed constantly lately, but I don't have any money for any pills (whether it's for my sinuses or anti-depressants), and I know mom & Gary don't have a lot of money right now either, and I don't want to bum off of them anymore. I haven't given them any money for like two months, and Gary probably thinks I'm some lazy, incompetent ass and wants to kick me out. I don't have any fucking friends..I couldn't even do some stupid test to get back into school so I could get a better job someday. I can't even remember how to multiply, that's like grade 5/6 shit and I can't even do it after trying for weeks before that stupid test.
I'm never going to get to meet Nate, and if I ever did I'd probably mess things up because I'm too fucking stupid. He's going to realize how ugly and stupid I am, and he'll never want to have anything to do with me. He probably already feels like I'm avoiding him, because we don't talk very much, and I always end up going to lay down..I guess I am avoiding him sometimes, and I'm an ass for doing that. And I always feel like an ass when I think that I want to break up with him, because it just seems like it's going to stay this way forever, and I want more, even though I'm scared of more. All I want to do lately is sleep, I don't even like talking to anyone anymore, I'm the most pathetic person I know.
Mom and Gary were thinking of kicking me out last month because I wasn't working very often...then I get FIRED because I'm so pathetic. I couldn't even do the easiest job ever, that's how lame I am. I feel sick and depressed constantly lately, but I don't have any money for any pills (whether it's for my sinuses or anti-depressants), and I know mom & Gary don't have a lot of money right now either, and I don't want to bum off of them anymore. I haven't given them any money for like two months, and Gary probably thinks I'm some lazy, incompetent ass and wants to kick me out. I don't have any fucking friends..I couldn't even do some stupid test to get back into school so I could get a better job someday. I can't even remember how to multiply, that's like grade 5/6 shit and I can't even do it after trying for weeks before that stupid test.
I'm never going to get to meet Nate, and if I ever did I'd probably mess things up because I'm too fucking stupid. He's going to realize how ugly and stupid I am, and he'll never want to have anything to do with me. He probably already feels like I'm avoiding him, because we don't talk very much, and I always end up going to lay down..I guess I am avoiding him sometimes, and I'm an ass for doing that. And I always feel like an ass when I think that I want to break up with him, because it just seems like it's going to stay this way forever, and I want more, even though I'm scared of more. All I want to do lately is sleep, I don't even like talking to anyone anymore, I'm the most pathetic person I know.
Dec 11, 2007
Christmas Adoptables
Bwahahaha, so I just found some christmas adoptables, so I'm going to stick them all here!
December 23, 2007
Click here to feed me a Rare Candy!
Get your own at PokePlushies!
Click here to feed me a Rare Candy!
Get your own at PokePlushies!
December 23, 2007
Click here to feed me a Rare Candy!
Get your own at PokePlushies!
Click here to feed me a Rare Candy!
Get your own at PokePlushies!
Anchorman Chat Log
We watched Anchorman, which was actually a lot better than I thought it would be. I forgot how funny Will Ferrel can be sometimes. And, it has Jack Black in it! I wish he'd had more lines though, he's such a great actor. QQ
[12:54] Dramatic Polar Bear: I just remember Steve Carrell with sideburns.
[12:54] Cookies Plz: "Only the names, locations and events have been changed." thats like, the whole thing. rofl
[12:54] Dramatic Polar Bear: ROFL, yeah.
[12:55] Dramatic Polar Bear: do u think hes sexy??
[12:55] Cookies Plz: no lol
[12:55] Cookies Plz: My sister hates Will Ferrel.
[12:55] Dramatic Polar Bear: Why?
[12:55] Dramatic Polar Bear: Rofl
[12:56] Cookies Plz: I don't know.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: I love his voice.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: Especially when he yells.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: Reminds me of when I used to watch Oblongs.
[12:56] Cookies Plz: What's this rated? rofl
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: He was the voice of the dad.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: I think R
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: They cuss a couple times.
[12:56] Cookies Plz: "The arsenist has oddly shaped feet." ??
[12:54] Dramatic Polar Bear: I just remember Steve Carrell with sideburns.
[12:54] Cookies Plz: "Only the names, locations and events have been changed." thats like, the whole thing. rofl
[12:54] Dramatic Polar Bear: ROFL, yeah.
[12:55] Dramatic Polar Bear: do u think hes sexy??
[12:55] Cookies Plz: no lol
[12:55] Cookies Plz: My sister hates Will Ferrel.
[12:55] Dramatic Polar Bear: Why?
[12:55] Dramatic Polar Bear: Rofl
[12:56] Cookies Plz: I don't know.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: I love his voice.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: Especially when he yells.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: Reminds me of when I used to watch Oblongs.
[12:56] Cookies Plz: What's this rated? rofl
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: He was the voice of the dad.
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: I think R
[12:56] Dramatic Polar Bear: They cuss a couple times.
[12:56] Cookies Plz: "The arsenist has oddly shaped feet." ??
Alberta Rules, Grande Prairie Rules
Dan's brother, Darryl put this on my FunWall at Facebook, and it's so true and hilarious. I just love it!
NEW RULES FOR ENTERING ALBERTA:
1. Bring your own house.
2. If you are going to the Oil Sands, bring your own house, school, and hospital.
3. If you are going to Edmonton, wear your flak jacket. This is the murder capital of Canada.
4. If you are driving to Edmonton, note that it is also the auto theft center of Canada.
5. If you are bringing drugs, head straight to Fort McMurray, the drug capital of Canada.
6. If you are looking for work, look no further. Minimum wage is $5.60 per hour.
7. If you work downtown, note that parking costs $5.00 per hour or more.
8. If you are able to buy a house in Edmonton, or Calgary, why not spend the money on a 15 year holiday.
9. If you drive a Hummer, look out. Alberta has the highest gas prices in Canada [The Alberta Advantage].
10. In Edmonton we have 5 hospitals. 10 years ago we had 7. Don't come here sick.
11. In Calgary the population has exploded. The last road was paved 12 years ago. Calgary is a no parking zone.
12. Remember when Roy Rogers etc. were beating the Indians? Well it's payback time. They own all the Casinos here.
NEW RULES FOR ENTERING ALBERTA:
1. Bring your own house.
2. If you are going to the Oil Sands, bring your own house, school, and hospital.
3. If you are going to Edmonton, wear your flak jacket. This is the murder capital of Canada.
4. If you are driving to Edmonton, note that it is also the auto theft center of Canada.
5. If you are bringing drugs, head straight to Fort McMurray, the drug capital of Canada.
6. If you are looking for work, look no further. Minimum wage is $5.60 per hour.
7. If you work downtown, note that parking costs $5.00 per hour or more.
8. If you are able to buy a house in Edmonton, or Calgary, why not spend the money on a 15 year holiday.
9. If you drive a Hummer, look out. Alberta has the highest gas prices in Canada [The Alberta Advantage].
10. In Edmonton we have 5 hospitals. 10 years ago we had 7. Don't come here sick.
11. In Calgary the population has exploded. The last road was paved 12 years ago. Calgary is a no parking zone.
12. Remember when Roy Rogers etc. were beating the Indians? Well it's payback time. They own all the Casinos here.
Dec 10, 2007
Superbad Chat Log
Me and Nate watched Superbad...it's a awesome movie, by the way. Anyways, here's the chat log from it. Nate = Dramatic Polar Bear, Me = Cookies Plz
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